You know, sometimes i feel really gilababinakmampos happy because hes back. But at the same time so wtfbbq because of the things that happen while hes back here. I really did tell myself no more being jealous, no more being angry, no more being my old self. But i just cannot help it when its her. I mean maybe i feel offended because she's WAY prettier then me, shes smart. Although shes younger then me i still hate her in so much more other ways. Before going back from school, i always see her lining up and always just wonder what is up her mind. Or maybe their just good friends. I can't help it feeling this way. I mean i lost him too many times already. Its really sickening me nowdays. God this is stupid. Not like writing this would make a difference. Ive already lost someone to another girl i just hope it doesnt happen again. And of course he wont even give me confidence that it wont happen. The messages are all just the same.
='(
Yesterday went out to asia cafe with some friends. Played pool. I've suck even much more then last time =(. But i won a few games with pacad giving me alot of chances. "so sweet". At one point, when i sat down. My backbone was feeling really really pain. I tried standing up and it hurt even more, so i sat back down again, the pain still didn't go away. Its like pain and needles only much more pain-er. I didn't tell anyone though it was hurting. I could stand the pain so no problem-o. I had fun last night with them and kutuk-ing pacad, bangsat! And shafiq kutuk-ing me all the time plak. And asye being his quiet self all the time.
Hmm
Spend some time with babylove last night, he came back early but now hes back in college again. For his last class. No idea why he even bother to come back. He didn't even have any excuse when i asked him why. Oh well, must not be because he misses me. Nevermind.
I dont really have much to write now, I dont have the mood.
-fallen angel-
♥ 4:46 PM