As if you have a choice.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

One year two months, i know its nothing much other then

those couples, that lasted more then 4 years or something. But for us, this is defenitly a eye opener to what we didn't really knew we had. It was love. Just love.

7 times broke up in 4 months, countless crying nights, ex gf, ex bf in the picture somehow, scandals, hurt, crying, the slap, everything we went through, somehow we're here, together, and still happily in love, i dont know how this happen this way but im glad and im happy, i dont want anyone else except you baby, and i need you only.

Happy One year 2 months anniversary, even though we almost forgot, does it even matter anymore? Okay, a tiny bit matters but we know we're in love, the years and dates dont even matter, i just want to be with you and only you,

Mohd Asyraf.

♥ 12:26 AM

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

The day was fine, hanging out with friends, movies. The mother called to tell stories about this lady, friends were critizing every story that have been told about her. I dont blame all the cursing too. Boyfriend said,

" Please call your mother, there's a problem, there's police everywhere"

Mum, what is happening over there?

I can't talk now, something happen, and i can't tell you now because the police is infront of me now

Is everyone alright? Shawn? You?

Yes, everyone is alright. Its about that lady, her husband came in the house, beat her to death *almost*, broke the keyboard to half and drop the P.A system. The police is around here now, talking about the problem. I'll call you back after this..

Hungs up.

Talk to my friends even more about the problem, and my lesbian partner, she was very pissed.

Why do people do this stuff? Why do they cheat? Why do they even bother to sleep with someone that is married? Why dont they ever think? I'm talking so much, i was one of them, but not this bad. And when you get caught, do you tell the real truth because your afraid you might get hurt more, or do u tell the truth because you are supposed too? What makes you think he won't beat you even if you do tell the truth? Why did you even do this in the first place? Do people ever think anymore? Think about consequences that is gonna happen after the problem?

If you knew your marriage was gonna be a problem since the first day he layed his hand on you, why didn't you walk out the door? Why didn't you tell him, get lost, i dont want to ever be with you ever again. Why do you choose to accept his apologise and act as though nothing went wrong?

I beg you mother, please dont put urself in this position anymore, however bad your life is because im never for you nowdays, please learn to not trust people so easily, i beg of you. Do you remember this words?

"Since you brought man to my wife, i would rape your daughter now"

Do you rmbr what that can actually do to me? You would have lost me at that moment, at that time. Sometimes i thank god for going out even thought i had not much money.

Alot of things happen, but it kept my mum & me closer now. Maybe this is particially my fault, i was never there for my mother till now, and im sorry.

And to you,piece of shit, MY MOTHER never brought any man to your wife, she was in her own house minding her own business, while your wife brought man to my own house, there is a difference between what your wife wants to do behind your back and my mum bringing man to the house, whatever my mum choose to do, my mum has guy friends yes, but she is faithful to my father, no matter what, im sorry your wife is too stupid to sleep with other man behind you, maybe its particially your fault for beating her up all the time. Dont try to turn the story around with the police, if i were to be there, i would have made you shut up at that moment, stupid pakastani people, get lost and rot in hell, go back to your stupid idotic country please?

Yours Sincerely, Fallen Angel.

♥ 4:08 PM

Monday, April 27, 2009

I really have lost my mood for blogging, maybe its all the time away from my blog, that's why, i seem to know what to write at that moment, then when i log in to blogger, i suddenly have nothing to say, oh well.

Three Things Happen Today

As usual, fought with jack because he doesn't know how to speak to my mother properly, it makes me pissed off that he doesn't know to respect my mother, always follow his own head only, so yeah, but that is over and done with
My two weeks is just over, i broke it, that, only me can know about it and my two bff's if they ever ask me.
My mum surprisingly got better in just two days, by the way, she was sick before this, vomitting, suspected denggi but nope, shes fine. everyone say yeay! *not sarcasticly*

Nothing to write about those three things actually. So, evryone has started college and has their own life now, im just waiting for my time to come now, going to see my dad in china first, then come back and decide where i wanna go, taylors or inti.

Taylors : 3 reason i might not enter.

Because i feel like taylors is going to spoil me. Relationship wise, friend wise and studying wise

I dont feel like its a studying atmosphere there, *likeanycollegeisatthismoment* but yeah

Bloody darn expensive.

Inti : 3 reasons i might not enter

I feel like its gonna be boring and its nearby ss15 for goodness sake, asia cafe everyone? everyday? mygod, i will die.

My dad WAS a lecturer in taylors so i might get in there easily then inti

Friends? hmm, i know one of my bestfriend is going and i dont feel like im gonna be really happy, its nothing related to you, but i know what i wont like and stuff like that

So yeah, sorry if i dont make sense but yeah, thats how i would put it. So yeah. One of my friends told me to just
" Set your goals straight, you wanna go overseas, make it there, make sure you get there, study your very best"

And another friend,
"Even though it might not be the best studying atmospher especially for a girl like you, very very lazy to study *yes that's true* but come on, im sure you just have to have confidence in yourself, dont worry you'll be fine"

So yeah, im abit scared of college, scared i'll be exactly like in secondary and primary, where im the stupidest GURL in class. Nope, that's gonna change, trust me. I just need to keep my mind straight now..

My New Favourite Handphone. Dadddddyyyyyy!!!

Yours sincerely, Fallen Angel

♥ 1:45 AM

Saturday, April 25, 2009

First Off I want to say i love my two bitches from the real world. Although they didn't invite me to the krispy kreme launch, its okay. I'll forgive them one day, somewhere in the outter lifetime. Lol. See, i told you i have nothing to blog about. O M GEEE!

Second, I dont really have anything to say except im happy at where i am now, surprisingly. At one point, everyone told me to just leave it be and yes im leaving it be and something surprising happen yesterday. And its not the best but im happy.. I want to go out. I want to see them But i dont know how to tell,

Oh well, i will tell later, i think. Let me think about it first. No one wants to join me, my bestfriends dont want to join me. Im so hurt right now. Lol.

This is the sick part. My Friend Yash edited this picture and i think its cool, Thank you very much.

Quote : "I dont go into clubs that i have to pay, i always go in free"

Please la, Like we dont. I have nothing else to say except yeah, im abit pissed off with this but i tend to not show it, just keep it inside. Let it be, ling. Let it be. Haha =)

Yours sincerely, Nicole.

♥ 2:53 PM

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Lol. Will be having a girls day out today with mua lesbian partner and me sayang. lol. Hope everything turns out fun watching ling shop especially when the sales are over, abis. semua duit abis. n then going swimming later, ohmygod, i dont know what to wear. fuck shit. Nevermind. Toodles.

Yours sincerely, Fallen Angel.

♥ 12:27 PM

Monday, April 20, 2009

The post before this has been transferred to my new blog. Anyone who wants to read it and find out more about it, please ask me for the new url. Thank you oh so much.

And by the way i already got my internet back so everyone can be active in my blog now, again.

Please come back my blog fans.. =(

-fallen angel-

♥ 8:44 PM

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Introducing, The first week of April & Some days after that.
Too lazy to elaborate every single detail and picture. So just check it out

Love Love Love It.

Still my Lesbian partner.

Our so called vodka drinks, 3 is better then one right right? =)

Gym isn't working out.. Oh well..

Ladies.

Crazy maniacs. yes, im proud to b one of them

Everyone say "awwww"

My piano teacher and my sayang.

My Sunshine. wtf?

One of the days, eshia came over for a day at the gym, after that her legs sored like hell, she couldnt barely dance, oh well, that should keep her off the stage for a while. haha, nah, it isn't working. So yeah, was bored. Took pictures.

Lalalalalala....

Loser trying to show off.

Much Better. =)

We cool yo!

More cooler then ever! haha

Must have a one nice picture of ms eshia.. god, help me.

Okay, that's done. So yeah, i already found myself a new blog and a new url. Have to ask me to know about it, its a blog unrevealed and all my hidden feelings and past and whatever crap i kept to myself only and no one else knows about it. So yeah, to read please ask me

One more last thing, i might be doing a piercing or a tattoo, so please help me to pick either tattoo on my left back, nearby shoulder or a tongue piercing which eshia has been forcing me to do. Lol, Boyfriend not really happy about the fact he must choose between piercing or tattoo, come on, i dont want to be the innocent girl forever. please baby, please? =(

What Else?

To My Lovely Perempuan, Whatever choice you make, we would always be there for you, although i dont like the reasons why you did it but hey, ive been there before, its better fixing it before it gets even more complicated, i understand alot.. and im just hoping the days will make you happy and not sad. Please dont do anything stupid in the mean time. I love you and always will so so much no matter what you turned out to be.

Guess that's it. Internet coming very soon. WTFRUSTUPID.COMPUTER.MAN. Yes, im pissed off. Anyways, love ya'll.
muax.

♥ 7:24 PM

Friday, April 17, 2009

You know how when sometimes you think you;re the only one at fault, and no one is being there for you to help you and you actually think that you have lost everyone important in your life.

Yes, i;ve been there and you know what, I;m suddenly feeling so alive again. I just feel like starting my life all over again and just being just like what i am now and today. Sorry im abit over and soo soo soo random. But yeah, i had a good conversation with one of my bestfriends today and i miss him a whole lot and it felt so nice to just chat like normal. It takes time for someone to forgive someone but he has, no matter what. I am like so happy today.

Other then that, nothing happen this month except that day was the RANDOM DAY when iffah ask me and rachael to go to sunway lagoon, they were nice to pay for me, actually got my head off alot of things, just had time to think on the beach and stuff, really relaxing place and i actually went on all the most scariest rides just for that bitch, iffah. Bloody shit. I was literally shouting, *im gonna kill you if i ever get off this ride*. I dont even dare to go with my boyfriend, and im going on it for her. Oh well, bestfriends forever.. lol. But i just love this week a whole lot. I miss clubbing, i want a clubbing night, Its gonna happen soon.

Okay, this post has nothing important, have nothing else to write anyways, gonna grt my internet very very soon. wait yeah? i'll be blogging twenty four seven just like my lesbian partner. lol. til then, love you peeps..

muah muah

signing off, fallen angel.

♥ 2:33 AM

Sunday, April 5, 2009

swimming at my condominium with ling and eshia. =)

good day.

This time im literally tired. Tired of trying to be there. Tired of messaging seeing whether you're alright. Tired of saying sorry thousand of times. Tired of knowing and thinking about you twenty four seven. How can someone you know so well, someone that was so close to you become your worst enemy, become someone that you never knew existed. becoming nobody in your life. becoming just a normal friend when we had the best times anyone can ever imagine.

Im tired. this is the last straw i would give. i am not someone and i repeat, NOT someone that gives too many chances in one time. Im seriously tired. Go to hell for all i care. I dont give a fuck anymore. I have my own life, and yeah you do too. And its better we're this way. at least i would stop all the tears and bullshit you ever gave me. Thank god you're gone.

Im currently in ESHIA SAYANG house now, blogging, and she's playing the guitar. Thank God shes not rapping ling. Lol. We went swimming just now because i was bored at home. And de boyfriend is at the f1 race now, with his smaller brother, haikal.. He's so cute. SWEAR TO GOD! Anyways, had fun today. Yesterday went to asia cafe with de boyfriend and he's friend. It was nice. Get to meet the subang clan again, asye & lan and stuff like that. lol. And i almost fell on the staircase, shouted so loud everyone stared at me. Nothing much to write.

Take care everyone.

loves.

-fallen angel-

♥ 9:13 PM