Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything
When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real
Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real
Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
* a song you should hear.. Broken Strings - James morrison.. Been listening to it all the time now*
♥ 10:22 PM
Away.
Sorry for the inconvenience caused. Lol. I'll be away till im ALLOWED to write a long post. Since im at someone's house and hes not ALLOWING me to write a long post. Prom pictures and stuff like that would be posted on the next post, i hope. PACAD!!!....
Anyways, take care.
-fallen angel-
♥ 9:26 PM
I wanted to write about so many things.
But my mind is just this
*Blank*
"Because i sudah give up"
That's all you can say for your excuse of being an a-hole, I wonder why i always gave you the chance but when it came to just being a good friend for me, you think about your feeling much more then me. Dont you get it? Dont you fucking get it that i dont want to hurt you that is why im doing this before this goes even longer and you end up getting hurt even much more. Why can't you just fucking understand for once? You know, you're just perfect. A perfect J.A.C.K.A.S.S
-Fallen Angel-
♥ 1:44 AM
Happened In November 2008.
♥ 5:25 PM
As i lay my fingers on the keyboard, i have no idea what to say. Everything is in my mind. Everything that is true is in my heart. Yet i can't find the words for apologise, for happyness, for grief and sadness. I have no idea what to do anymore. My life went from perfect to really fucked up to okay, happening to confusation to here. Im back here again. The life i never wanted. To fight with bestfriends of mine just because of someone. To leave someone behind because of another someone. Why is all the blame on me when all i was trying to do is proof a point? Everything is backfired on me now and i have no where else to go.. Nothing else to do.. No meaning to the life i led anymore.
I miss you. This is so fuckingabsolutelyfuckingfuck hard. I never thought it would be this hard. Alone i still feel. Having him tell me tat he loves me and that he misses me. Can i still believe it like i used to believe once before?
I feel restless. No one can help me through this. I dont feel like i need anyone anymore to say anything about. I want to but i can't find the words to say anything anymore.
Im so tired.
Live. Tears. Stay.
Im sorry to everyone.. I'll be away till light comes back on.. Take care..
-fallen angel-
♥ 11:06 PM
This is so the wrong thing to do. I love you. I do like so much. I need you. I have never felt this happy in my life before. I have never met such a nice guy like you. Yet somehow or another, i can't push everything away and just give myself to you. Im scared of commitment now. Im scared because of the mistakes i have done over and over again. I know what i did would be a regret in my life sooner or later, but this is the best. I dont wanna hurt you anymore. I dont want to see you weak. I dont want to be the cause of your tears.
I love you i really do. I wish i can start something with you. But its too fast. Everything is moving too fast.
I just need to be alone. For some time.
xoxo.
-Nicole Aldeth Main-
♥ 11:17 PM
These are the people i need in my life to literally survive. =)
I sayang you guys so much.
Thanks for everything
I seriously mean it.
No seriously.
Lol
Pacad-ness. Thanks for everything babe. Deep inside my heart, everything involves you. I thank god sometimes that he brought me a pet brother like you. Someone who can help me through everything. Push everything away just because i need someone to talk to. Run to the shop just because i say i need credit. Ohmygod, you are just so great.
"He's the coolest and the cutest pet brother i have ever had, and always will be my only one &&& he's status is stil available, lol"
Shapeq-ness. Although you dont help me that much but your still my number one in my heart. Hes the party starter, the host, the most funniest jokes guy i have ever had. Even when im crying or just sad, with a look from his eyes, im happy again. I dont know how the hell he does it. But hes face just cracks me up. Its too hot i guess. lol. I love ya so so much. So glad to have you in my life. Im sorry for all the fights we have been through and all the misunderstanding. I sayang you. And take care of my friends properly yeah? lol you hurt them, i'll murder you on the spot.
They are my soulmate/guardian angel/ B.F.F. You know why? Because they are great and they know what life really is about.. They advice me on the most littlest thing.. They help me whenever i need them. They know how to say the right things at the right time. I love them wholeheartedly. They change me to a person i never knew i had inside of me. Im strong because of them. I love you both. So so much.
My first slut. Shes my small baby. I teach her things. I give her advices. She does the same. Shes my strength holder. She brings me up. She helps me through everything. Shes always there to lend a helping hand. She changed me into being more high class cause she is. God, she used to be a nerd. And a prefect at school. Now look whose dancing on the stage in clubs? haha. No matter what she does, dont ever call her a slut. Only im able to do that. Cause no matter what she is and no matter what she does. She's always gonna be my number one priority and bestfriend.
Eshia baby. Her sister hates me. But i love her. They both are so different. This girl knows everything. Our ex are almost about the same guy. We know how to relate to each other. She help me without hesitation. Shes like my bigger sister. Im so glad i met you baby. Thanks for everything you did for me. Sayang you so much.
Tattoo. Love it.
-fallen angel-
♥ 4:13 PM
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Take me back to the start.
Now tell me what are we? Tell me what we used to have was actually something and it shudn't have been thrown away. Tell me that. Now you finally realize what you lost. After months of me waiting like a doll. After months of crying because you were cheating behind my back. After months of sheer sadness and tears coming down my eyes every night. Now tell me what are you doing in the middle of the night? Now you know how it feels like to be push aside and to be left alone.. Now you know how it feels to be cheated on, to be taken advantage of. Now you know.
I never meant to do these kinda things to you. I never meant for us to part like this. I never meant for you to read the messages a new guy send. But this is what God wants. Its just called karma. And there's nothing you can do about it now. Maybe as time pass by there is still hope. But for me now, there is nothing i feel. I love you, yes i do. But my heart doesn't linger for your presence anymore. I've been pushed,slapped,crying,cutting,depress,taken advantage of, used. There is only a small part my life and my heart can take. I'm sorry.
-fallen angel-
"These was one of the best night with you, my darling"
Its gone.
♥ 8:20 PM
Nicole Turns 17. This is how it is. Im wondering how if im 18. Daymmmmm!
Drunk Sick Asses. Lol
Dancing on the stage for the whole world to see right after 12 am.,
Hold me.
My Sluts. CEHHHH! hahahhaha
Shes my lesbo Partner. I think everyone else thought that too
Bend baby. Bend. This looks wrong. haha =)
Quueee
My Pet Brothere. Love ya.
My ManS. Only one went down, guess who.
No its not black dick. haha
They were the party starters. Have to give credit to that.
♥ 12:28 AM
Swimming.
Nazeem's Bbq.
