I think she might be true. Seriously. I tend to say things that i dont mean. And when i do mean it im damn mean. Anyways, waiting for the boyfriend to finish working now. School already started and i didn't go for the first day. Was buzy bringing my nephew to the education office, he's gonna go into SKSeri Selangor. The school that everyone from subang seems to school at before. And he might get in there. Not really sure yet. Something went wrong with his birth certifiicate. Hope he'll be able to get in the school.

Last night was not good at all. I knew things that i didn't wana know. Usually when i know something wrong is going behind my back. I tend to not look. Like if hes hanging out with other girls, or just throwing them in the water. I tend to not look at all. Because i dont wanna get angry. But i couldn't stop reading the letter that she gave to me. The first one i told was my bestbitch, anis. And she gave me quite alot of advices. Till she had problems on her sight also. Im sorry for being a bitch. But seriously i had so many bad experience with the whole ex girlfriend thing. And i dont feel like loosing the best thing in my life right now. Im not gonna just give up that easily.

Last night he came over for a while, after hearing me crying on the phone knowing he didn't tell me the truth. I talked to him about all the stuff i was going through lately. He was damn sleepy but he still stayed up and tried his hardest to listen to whatever i had to say. And i spoke like seriously damn alot. At one point, i felt bad for talking so much that i just shut up and just stare on the wall. And the night ended with him saying sorry for everything and a hug with kiss. I can say maybe at times when i was facing the back, i was crying without him noticing. I can't stop the tears from coming down. I dont really know what im crying for. I just hope i won't do this all the time.

After hearing that song on the radio i felt like doing something stupid. I message him without any prior notice. And all he said was "who are you?". Mann, thinking you actually know that person so well and he would always be there for you and he ends up saying that to me. Well whatever i can't take it so personally anyways. He has his own life now. Whatever it is, he's happy and im happy with that too.

My bestfriend made me pissed off quite alot today. Till i put alot of sense into her head. I kinda always have to do this. Sometimes im scared to even advice things like that. Scared people would think like "come on, she's only advicing for you to move on because she doesnnt want you to be close to him". But when i start with something, i just never shut up. Believe me that this is for your own good okay. Im sorry i was so harsh and stuff like that. I had to be so you would listen. Your as hardheaded as me, so i know when to shout or not. I still love you babe no matter what.

-fallen angel-