Yeah, i gave that words to him and guess what? Tears just started rolling down my face. Mann, i've never cried like for so long already. I think one week, and today was the day i broke down. I was fine, it was perfectly fine just loving him and not being able to be with him. But thinking on the long road, its not gonna do any good. To me or to him. I don't get it, why sometimes its so hard to just be with that person? Why does he always have to think about the future and what happens in our relationship. Why can't for now he just love me and be with me? Is it so hard?



I see guys nowdays trying to find for the right girl in the their life, actually its not hard to find a girl, its just how you treat that girl in your life. You don't act like you want her, then you'll never get her. On the other hand, im here, crazy over you and not thinking about how much this is hurting me inside yet i throw myself to you with so much love&care, yet you act like you don't want it. And im still continue doing it. Yeah, of course everyone tells me "you're stupid, you're gonna get hurt again, You know once he get another girl in his life, hes just gonna throw you away." Yeah he is, i know he is. I know he might. I mean relationships in your school years NEVER work out for long. The ones that do work out, i give full respect to them.

I want that.

I want someone that can love me the same way i love them. I want someone that would care for me just for me, not because of my money or what i have. I want someone that will tell me "eventhough you cry almost everyday, you're still the most beautiful girl in the world".
I want someone that is there for me unexpectedly, that would do things out of surprise, i dont have to tell that person what to do and what to be. He would just know how to make me happy by himself. Try to understand what i went through, listen to me and dont just go "uh huh" and never listen to a word i say.

I told my bestfriend that day " i might stop the friendship and just move on ". She said,

" dont do things that you know you can't do, Don't regret before you do something, its not over, show him what you're relationship was, show him that even when you both are over, you are having the faith to still keep that relationship".
That words keep on ringing in my mind, i keep on thinking. I know my life is gonna be quite hard when i stop the friendship, i know. Because there is no one else that can ever take his place, ever in my heart. Although it was only 3 months, i wish i met him much much earlier.


After all this words, i just wish he was with me.

~The little Things - colbie caillat~

-fallen angel-


Another post that won't mean anything.
*How many tears that may fall down your face it ain't gonna be a difference*