As if you have a choice.

I'm a girl who ONLY love people who love me
I'm a girl who ONLY love myself & friends
Oh yes, I'm taken, happily, :D

I want you to like me
I wanna have lots of ka-ching $$
I want someone i can really trust
I want my past to be forgotten
I want people to know i'm MIX not malay

Anis Nabilla .
Michelle .
Eshia Kar Mun .
Shafique .
Lily Zahara .
Samira .
Sue Hanie .
Denise Siau .
Farhana K .
Rachael Teng .
Li Anne .
Tevaneea .
Trisha Teo .
Aisyah .
Eleena A .
Juria H .
Tiffany .
Sonia A .
Beauty .
Jack Chan .
Sho Suzuki .
Vanessa .
ModelMaterials .

February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009

It's over and done with. You were the one i fell for over and over again. You were the only i believe every lie you told me. And when are you ever going to change? Is this the life i prepared for? No. I want a new life.

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Saturday, May 24, 2008

A day going on with the decisions of my life.

Nope, this post is not gonna be emo at all. Because for the last day, i had a great time. I think to myself now, its gone. Whatever i had, I did have. And i'm glad we spend the last minutes together and now, we're back to just normal friends or whatever we call it. I promised him something, and he did the same. I can't promise that i won't do some stupid. But i promise to never ever come in between his life again. I would not. And i choose not to.

Yes, outside we can be the most happiest couple ever. We love each other, that's why we can't fight for long. But as i said to my friend. *Even love birds don't last long*. I'm gonna move on and think back on this day and what we shared for 26 hours. The best 26 hours i can say. And now, i dont even blame him for wanting to walk out the door or whatever it is. I understand the circumstances and

*I'm actually making the hardest words because of rockstar ;)*

I miss my nephew, he got admitted to the hospital because he had a nail infection, you wouldn't wanna know how it looks like. He's coming back only tomorrow. Damn, i feel bad for not being with him today. But i had other things to do. I'm sorry baby. Shawn is like everything to me now. I may treat him like shit infront of my friends. I scold him and i'll kick him. But inside i know he loves me and i love him. And he'll always pick me over my mother. haha ;).

He sucks at smiling PROPERLY..
My eyes abit bengkak. This was yesterday. Sorry. =x

I tend to sing alot nowdays. No idea why. Songs like
"take a bow, always be my baby, Feelings show, I'm in love with a girl".
And so on, and i try my hardest to NOT shed a tear, even though im alone in my house. I really do try my hardest to put my head up high and just go through this problem as if it was just like every other normal problem. And i'll keep on trying.

I might be going to Anis Nabilla's house. Freaky i know. SHES gonna raped me. "muahahaha". Anyways, im going there just so i can go to curve and buy my bikini for curve. And to see her big huge house, so as she said. I wanna plan it out, but shes freaking well not online.
Gonna watch tv now. take care. xoxo

-fallen angel-

You'll always be apart of me Im part of you indefenitly
Girl, don't know you can't escape me
Cause' you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Cause you'll always be my baby.

Ain't gonna cry no, & i won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave Girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause you know in your heart babe
Our love will never end.

♥ 7:47 PM