I cant stop it, I dont know why, I dont know the reason I dont know what im feeling

At night, looking at the stars, I just cant seem to stop it from flowing down from my eyes.

Its not you, You're not the problem

But maybe its me. I dont know what i'm feeling now.

My heart is okay, Im not feeling that bad. But i am sad, inside. Way way way Inside. Im feeling so much hurt. Im so stressed. Im so hurt in the weirdest way

Im not alive, Im not smiling, Im not caring.

Im not happy as i was before. I dont have the same heart as before.

I lost all of it when i lost you.

it doesn't matter

Future, i dont know whats gonna happen. But for now, I dont see myself going anywhere in life.

What you said maybe its right, I'll end up exactly like her. But i dont want it. Im doing my best to change because i dont want to end up making mistakes over and over again

The parents:

They don't give a damn of what im feeling. They don't understand that i go out sometimes becaue being in the house just hurts me. Just hurts me too much. Especially this month, Especially this STUPID MONTH! i fucking hate this month like so much

This was the month last year, Everything ended.

And the year before that, Everything started. Is he near me? Is he next to me? Is he forgiving me? No i dont think so, because of the mistakes i did

Why can't you just understand im crying inside, Im hurting inside. I never let you see my tears cause you go on complaining to everybody that im hurting inside, and its their fault

Ever thought that maybe im just hurting because of you.
No, you dont give a fuck anymore anyways.


You dont give a damn whether our lives go down the drain.
You're too buzy trying to be the best person out there,
when we here are in stressed so much.. Nope, you still don't give a damn.

Whats the point of emai-ing anyways? Are you gonna reply what your supposed too?

No, instead you say some excuse on why you can't!.

YOU ALWAYS CAN'T! YOU NEVER CAN!!

Im just getting bullshit every single day. That's all

I just wanna be happy, just happy for once.

That's all i ask from you okay

Just one day where i'm proud of myself

Just one day where i can say

"i did something good today for myself"

Don't you understand me?

YOU NEVER DO!

-fallen angel-