Going on, today i had to make a choice on whether to continue with my boyfriend or not. Yes, i'm having a serious problem with my boyfriend now. I was thinking just now about him going to college and asrama and all that kinda stuff. And knowing there's gonna be hundred of girls that is gonna be all over him cause well i dont know, he has a charm i guess. I just sometimes wonder whether we would really work out for the best. In my heart, i seriously want it to work out so badly.
First time, in my own relationship, i want it to work out, no more playing around already, actually think of having a future with him, Im fed up of finding another one all the time. I rather just stick with one. Going on. I just asked him some questions today about the future and stuff and all. and he told me to think about what i really want and stuff like that. If i still choose to continue this relationship, then we won't think about the other gurls thats gonna come through cause he said he would always love me and me only.
One thing that made me cry today was because he said it on the phone, he couldn't say it in front of my face, instead he chose to message me that. I always tell him. *no use telling instead why not you show?* Much more confidence there you know. Anyways, i just hope he understand and yeah, gonna go think more and actually wake him up. Swine-ness of a boyfriend. Love you still baby. Muax! <3