College starts at 12 tomorrow.

Yes, still freaking out. Even orientation was scary. People came up to me and ask me whether i was chinese, i didn't know how to say i was mix, thinking people might think i'm too "poyo" or something.. So i said, eurasian, And they didn't understand as usual. So i said i'm mix.. I think some wanted to ask what am i mix with? The guys especially.. But i walked off.

I'm scared. I dont like meeting new people when i'm the one that has to start new conversations. If friends introduce me to someone then i don't mind. Yeah, anyways, my course there is 19 people if i'm not mistaken. 4 girls, The others guys. Mygod, that's sad.

Nevermind.

So i didn't go the second and third day of orientation cause i had a bbq for my stepfather and jack's so called birthday since i didn't celebrate cause no money, so that day was the day, and i surprised him by bringing his friends. The cake was a total bummer. Its hard to keep a 8th year old boy mouth SHUT! Before the cake came out, he started shouting. "GOT CAKE! GOT CAKE!"
So yeah, at least it lasted 5 hours of him not knowing.


Thanks eshia for staying over yesterday because of all the problems

Thanks Ling For the Support of college life.

Thanks que for sending me back home. =)

Thanks mummy for holding me back from jumping off the balcony, kononnya.

And thanks to duche for protecting me when i was alone at home.

I'm thankful for alot of things.

And especially to my dad, who still believe that i can do well with my education and gave me a chance in college. I will not let you down. I can assure you.