As if you have a choice.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Didn't have time to do this on the day itself.

The King Of Pop Is Gone.

It's still quite hard to hit me in my head, we are hearing his songs everywhere, radio over and over again, mamak's playing his old live concerts, its just too unbelievable. Sometimes i am mad at myself for forgetting who he truly was. When you tend to listen to his songs suddenly out of no where, it showed you how much he made a difference in the world. God, i can't believe he's gone. I grew up with his songs, all of us did, no one can ever hate him.

If he got killed because someone sabotage him cause of his comeback tour, i hope you burn in hell.

But if he died peacefully and god wants him to be next to god, i would pray and ask for god to take care of him very much and hope he lives a peaceful life.

I already miss him, and what he was to us before.

Rest In Peace Michael Jackson, We would always rmbr you deep in our hearts.

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

-fallen angel-

♥ 1:58 AM

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

I just woke up, two hours ago. Reach home after my morning shift at ten, because i had to follow friends home, if i had a car! i would have left way earlier then that and get my beauty sleep.

Didnt know working can be so tiring again, not used to getting up early. But i love my working mates, its fun. Time went pretty quick, maybe not tomorrow cause some of them having their off day, but oh well.

Boyfriend is staying in this apartment with his friends because his finals are starting this thursday, so he needs to focus and with me there all the time, he just wants me and he doesn't want to do anything else, so yeah, i make him lazy, i'm sorry. I miss him, alot.

My bestfriend is leaving to perak, i'm gonna miss her alot too, i can't even imagine 3 years without her, even 3 months, i dont know who to call to go out anymore, i dont know who to help me anymore, she's like the best among all, shes so hip, she's so fun, Just sayang her and will rindu her so much But studies is studies, studies always comes first. I'll see her from time 2 time.

Wanted to write a emo post about a a-hole i once knew, but too lazy. And too tired.

What else?

Another 6 days, and its One Year Four Months. That's shockingly long, i didn't know we can end up here. I'm just happy. Very very happy.

You Jealous, Loser?

-FallEn AnGel-

♥ 4:43 AM

Sunday, June 21, 2009

You're in the hospital, which of your friends would come and visit you?
Defenitly Eshia, For sure. The rest, im not very sure.

Does a kiss make you feel better?
Of course it does.

Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time?
Not boyfriends, scandals yeah. who doesn't at one point of their life

Ever been in love?
still am.

Would you rather be in a permanent relationship or play the field?
hate being single, so permanent relationship

Do you know how to use chop sticks?
yeap.

Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?
The Lead Man Of Transformers 2 & 1. He's my husband, we have a house together. LOL

Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
Alcohol, no i'm not a alcoholic.

Have you ever gotten a mosquito bite on your face?
nope. i think

What does love mean to you?
Love means trust, trust means honesty, honesty means everything. =) lol

Do you have a Valentine this year?
Yeap, but nothing special.

Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend?
yes, i love him

What is or was the best part about being single?
hanging out, i miss it honestly, but i'm getting there soon even when i have a boyfriend..

Do you believe in love at first sight?
yeah. ;)

French kiss, good or bad?
good. love it. =)

Ever kiss on the first date?
nope.. i dont take things that quick. ;)

Would you rather have a fun flirting or a long lasting relationship?
depends where i am.

What was your longest relationship?
now. going into 1 year 4 months in another 8 days, ;)

Do you like to talk about the future when in a serious relationship?
naaah, just have fun.. hee

When in a relationship do you have to have contact with your partner on a daily basis?
When he's out.

Do you believe in moving in together before engagement or marriage?
Nope. made that mistake before. it sucks.

Who would you count on to ....

1) Make you smile?
Everyone Actually. Except the bastard.

2) Make you laugh?
Always always always will be him and "Nick Carter"

3) Be the most perverted?
?? ohhhh. lol. thevanesh?

4) Be your shoulder to cry on?
Eshia, My Love.

5) Do something stupid with you?
Eshia Kar Mun Yogendran.

6) Hurt you the most?
You fuckhead loser. Eshia knows who. lol.

Eshia eshia eshia, everything is about eshia, i hate you bitch for making me love you so much! lol

"going for a bbq in anissa's house for iffah's, she's going to uitm perak soon. I'm gonna miss her, she's my hang out buddy, i love her to bits, so so so much"

Oh btw, did i tell you? I'm working tomorrow, with that fucking chindian bitch, haha. Promod needs one extra girl so yeah, i'm the best for the job because i'm outgoing, got experience and eshia sayang me. Cehhh.. But yeah, just work for some extra money for college, financial problems are getting worst, i hate seeing people that think money is nothing, fuck you go to hell.

Anyway, toodles.

-fallen angel-

♥ 7:13 PM

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Hard.

It’s hard when you know something you don’t want to know.

Its hard when you find out something that you didn’t know could happen again

It’s hard when you know your best friend is changing and you can’t do anything.

It’s hard when you say something out from your heart, and no one hears it.

It’s hard when you do something really bad and know you’re going to regret later.

It’s easy to hurt someone but not easy to heal It again.

I have done something very wrong,

I prayed to god and asked for his forgiveness for hurting a god’s given body.

I never knew I would be at this road again, thanks to you.

I was a total different person.

You were the same person as before, that I thought would not ever.happen.again.

♥ 9:17 PM

Friday, June 19, 2009

Someone got a new drum set today, no not him, me!

lol.

for what also i do not know. oh yeah, my mum is making a band, how effing cool right?

MY MUM IS MAKING A OLD AGE BAND!

*o.o*

Oh well, i like the drumss.. =D

& as usual, someone has to bang it at 12 30 in the farking morning. Nvm.

The bigger speakers haven't been up yet.

And the bass, the guitarist not here. His guitar is like so damn cool!

& a weird picture of me so you can laugh, this is me just getting up from bed. At 4 in the afternoon. whaaaaaaattttt? i love my sleep. =D

& this is a very nice picture of me. muahahaha.

"FARKING RESTAURANT CITY CAN'T WORK. PISSING ME OFF!"

♥ 2:49 AM

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Found some old pictures never knew it still exist.

Oh well,

This was because i was bored and wanted to check out my new webcam. =D

I know i look like one of those new high school girls that are just about to start the most adventurous lifestyle, oh well, im going to college soon, things doesn't get better.

Webcam with sayang. =)

"Okay okay, i go to sleeep!"

♥ 4:31 AM

Monday, June 15, 2009

Baby's Birthday.

Not very good pictures because i was buzy chit chatting and didn't have time to take picture so the only one was these ones. But i did a powerpoint for him, he likes it. Happy Happy Me. Sorry la, dont have money to buy for him anything. But i did buy for him this shirt that he wanted, expensive okay!.

He's happy he's perfect body is building up now. God, guys with their muscles, its like girls with their shopping. Have to get what they want to satisfy them. Don't i satisfy you enough? Okay, that sounds wrong.. Anyway, this is the top i bought for him from adidas..

This was at pizza hut, where he was using fork and knife surprisingly, look how hard he's trying to be matsaleh! hahah

Caped. Feeling Full already. Pizza hut is so dumb, they give you drinks and then the soup and then the breadstick, by the time the pizza come, you would be damn full already, so its like wasting mann? Nevermind. Caped paid most of it, thanks caped! haa

This was after shisha with them in castle. Nice. Shisha shisha, i love shisha.

Oh,did i tell you i got a new phone? LG cookie, Yes im a sucker for LOW GRADE, call me stupid i dont care. I loveeee this phone. Boyfriend jealous. =))

This is old pictures from eshia's phone, forgot to post them up so here it is.

Boobs utterly big, its weird.

Doing it ESHIA style! hahaha Big Golf Ball Eyes!

This was an offguard picture, gonna get braces soon. =(

Sisters. My mum wants to adopt her, its okay. We already look alike anyways. haha,

I sayang eshia like i sayang shisha.

HAHAHA

I'm done. Tired. -fallen angel-

♥ 3:36 AM

Thursday, June 11, 2009

So the changes in me, not very proud of it, nor am i sad of it, It kinda hurts when you do something new yet people say it sucks or they miss my old hair and stuff like that but what to do, i already asked you people's opinion and you can actually say it should be nice, and when i do it, you all say, i can't believe you did it for real. Oh well. What's done is done. I hate when people kutuk me, its not nice. =( But nevermind have some other people that cheers me up.

Before, Had this haircut since i was in form 3 i think?

And the new Nicoley.
=)

This is my dad's school. Its much bigger then this actually, this is just the front.

The building behind is his chemistry laboratory.

Our first picture together.

This plane is so cool! Look at the tail!
hahahah

Was pretty much bored, air asia is very very sempit, its annoying.

In the plane. Love this picture, was about to reach =)

When i reach home. =)

Miss My doggy and the annoying brat!

Alert, alert, NERD FREAKS ON THE WAY!!
=D

So, today. Eshia decided to buy chicken and vegetable to cook for me and my mum because some problem happened yesterday and i fought with my mother, and my mother was angry with her, we are somewhat like a family now and eshia is my bigger dumb blonde sister =) HAHAHHA

Just keep squishing, squishing!

Tadaaaa. It taste better then it looks.
Trust me

Wee, i haven't eaten it yet actually, going too soon. hope i dont die. =)

Anyways, i'll be off now, very tired.

In my heart, i'll never forget the 3 duos..

♥ 1:18 AM

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

China.

Don't want to elaborate on alot of things just that the experience thought me how to actually take care of myself and be confident in life, that's always a lesson from my dad and i love him very much. pictures are up on facebook. =)

Awit's Birthday. Jack's Brother. =)

Twins can be bestfriend too right? lol ;)

We were Bored. =)

Foosball. Damn long never play d.
Nicoley

She was posing and acting like she was playing, when she was

NOT!

One day, if i do decide to be a photographer for my hobby or something, eshia would be my first model then she would be my manager, but first, i have to make her brains from windows 97 to XP or something like that. =))))

I dont hate you, i never hated you, but i hate what you've become and this has been going long enough then when it first started, so im not lying anymore. Its done. I shouldn't be apart of your life anymore, since i can never fix things and i dont really know you that well anymore. So its okay, you dont have to take care of me. Goodbye.

I love you baby.

-I'm back-

♥ 2:23 AM