A brief update about today and yesterday.
Well, went to school yesterday. Got some of my results. Swear to god i felt like crying but i painted instead. Just to keep my mind off things. Of course im not gonna write down what i failed. But i got a1 for english and im the top 5 for english. TOP 3 DONT COUNT! So yeah, today had out BM results back. i think. I didn't go to school. Thought of waking up at 4 am to watch a movie but end up i slept the whole day. I couldn't even get up. It was so cold in my room. No wonder i can't get up.
I talked to someone just now. All i can say is im sorry for over-reacting. Maybe its just the missing and the not understanding how you're going through so much now. And im not the only one with problems. Im sorry if i wasn't there before for you. I'll try my best to make us like before. Sorry for blaming you for everything.
I stop contacting him. For about 3 days now. Its getting harder by the day and im always complaining to my goodfriends about how hard it is. And their so there for me. Never thought all of them hated me for giving him chances all the time. Yah,Loking at my phone and wanting to find his name and just call. I push myself away by just listening to all the love music he used to give me. I tried my best to stop crying. But i still do. I hope my friends are proud of me for doing this. I know my pet brother is. Oh well.
Going for a dinner now. Update more later. Toodles.
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-fallen angel-
♥ 7:53 PM