As if you have a choice.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

I'll be away for i think about 5 or 6 days. Not really sure. Depends what day my mum wants to go home. Hope everything works out well. Tomorrow is the 29. Im just not in the mood to talk about this now. He won't even remember i tink. He won't even care. And after reading some stuff i didn't want to read just now. Oh well. PMS-ing starts i guess. So i'll blog soon enough again. Suetling, Im comingg~~!! =)

♥ 8:56 PM

Its Just Me

Just finished watching Freedom Writers again. That move is a a+. I always loved watching movies that is somekinda like that. Sister Act. Step Up 2. All this movies are about the black people. How much they had to go through just to get through a ALIVE day of life. Yeah, their lives are at risk every single day. So yeah, I cried again just now. Watching this movie. Its not the crying that makes you feel sad. But the crying that makes you really really happy and just feel like smiling even though you're watching in on tv. Yes, im really sensitive with these kinda things. Its just so hard to resist the tears at the end.

Just now in the afternoon. The most funniest thing happen. I was walking back from seven eleven. Bought slurpee. It was such a tiring day. So i was minding my own business, just walking. When i heard this motorbike coming from the back. So i got scared and just hold my bag tightly, thinking maybe he was a thief or whatever. Yes i did get snatch before. So yeah, I was just walking looking down. Then before going into his house. He looked at me and just drove straight to his house gate and fell down from the bike. It was the most hilarious thing. Because he was looking at me while driving then didn't know the gate was close and just bang it. Haha, Its like he was looking at me and wasn't thinking about the gate. I swear it was so goddamn funny happening right infront of my house. So he fell and just put his head down. And i just walk pass. He was quite cute i can say. But nah, Malay guys as usual. D-U-M-B.

I feel like i really lost my sense for blogging. Always after i post something, i feel like its not perfect. Something's missing. Oh well, i'll get my mojo back soon. My family & My Babylove is currently on the way to sri petaling now. Im supposed to follow my mum. But then someone wanted me to stay back because he wanted to lepak with me for tonight. Oh, so sweet. So yeah, i'll be travelling there only on Tuesday. Meet up with the gang. Hope Ya'll Are Not Buzy For Just One Day. I know suetling isn't. hehe. =) Take care everyone.

♥ 12:09 AM

Friday, September 26, 2008

Selamat Aidil fitri,

Kepada saudara serta saudari ,

Setahun hanya sekali,

Merayakan hari yang mulia ini.

Selamat hari raya,

Pada saudari saudara semua,

Marilah dengan gembira,

Merayakan aidilfitri yang mulia.

Everyone's gonna be having their raya break. Some friends going all the way to kelantan. Some to Johor. Some to Pahang. And i'll be here, going back home to my old old hometown. Hang out with some friends there. Trials are finally over. Can have some air to breath now. Not like it had a different when we were undergoing trials. E.S.T was so complicating just now. Seriously, gave me the headache in my brains. Couldn't even think properly. It was so hard cause the notes they gave us. Just seem to hard to read. And the next one is even worst then the one before. Oh well. I did my best.

As you can see i again, changed my layout. Took me almost 4 hours to pick a nice one. I went back all the way to 2005 to find the right one. But can't seem to find so i just stayed with this one as ling says. She said its nice. But Anis says its not. Oh well. Different People. Different Opinion. I like this. But i still feel its abit sempit. Hmm. Im just so terribly exhausted today. Cant even seem to sit down in front of the computer. Brain isnt functioning all that well. With the whole changing HTML and shit. Oky, im boring you aren't i? Guess i should stop here.

Btw, I unprivate my blog already. Its time. So now any anonymous can kutuk me. Be welcome.

♥ 11:13 PM

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Suet Ling's Performance

Graduation & Concert Night.

We were 2 hours earlier, so took pictures lorrrh.. lol

A bad picture of me. Yes

At the end of the graduation then we took a picture. hee

The Hip Hop Dance. They were DAMN Good.

I like the girl in the middle. Shes a great dancer.

Small kids, doing their performance.

Owh, Suetling's Performance. Shes the middle one. How cute! =)

The middle front one. Sorry so blur!

This one i dont really know where is she. haha

They were the cutest smallest things. hahaha

Again. So cute!

Pui Yan, Sarah, Suetling & I dont know how to spell her name. -.-.

They look so cute and adorable. =)

So as you can see, i spend my sunday with Jack William And Kim loong at Suetling's performance. We drove all the way from Subang Jaya just to see suetling perform. What a perfect friend i am huh? Although my back at some point hurt like hell sitting down on those chairs but its okay. At last i got up. I literally wanted to kill myself because ling's perform was all the way at the end. Thank god they did HIP HOP dance style, made me awake for some time. Jack was falling asleep too. So yeah, After that we left for the mamak. Ate some. Talk about the past. About EVERYTHING from the past. Ling, LISTEN TO I.WANTED.YOU! We had a great time. Jack did too. We did have a fight the night before that. But he come over and soothen things out. Was supposed to go for the performance alone but jack wanted to see ling too. So we fixed the problem and just went for it. That was cool. =)

Saturday was fun too. Went to asia cafe. Waited 45 minutes for a damn pool table. The place was packed with so many chinese. I never seen so many chinese in asia cafe before. So yeah, we got the pool table. Then halfway i found out that jack was coming to asia cafe with his brothers. It was cool at first when in the middle some anonymous number called him and he was looking for me wondering whether i can see him talking to this someone. So at one point, i just ask him who was it, He didn't bother to tell. So i got pissed and that was when the fight started. Oh well, everything work out. I had fun with que, asye, zarr. Playing Foosball with Batman and dzaap. And que. Fun Fun Fun. So yeah, nothing much to write about. My mum wants to borrow the computer for her karaoke-ing. Alright. Take care everyone. Bye =)

♥ 10:43 PM

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Changed My Layout.

Made it more brighter then before.

Dont want to be emo no more.
*maybe.on.lonely.nights*

Will blog about my weekend on sunday.

Need a break from this cruel World.

- And every weekend you enter my arms as though you didnt do anything wrong.
You think everything is alright just because you give a kiss and hug, well you got it all wrong over and over again baby. I told you this is the last, means its really the last, This is why i back away baby-

♥ 5:42 PM

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Introducing, Lee Suet Ling a.k.a Sepet Eyes.

Yes, this girl. She has been with me through thick and thin. She loves to dance just like me. Shes the girl i run to whenever i have major problems. And shes the one i would forever love ever and ever. Shes perfect in everyway although she thinks shes fat. I miss hanging out everysingle day with her when i was staying at Sri Petaling, But i left for Subang Jaya. She wrote a post about me. You can check it out here.Click Here To Read. I never expected her to really write about me, but she did. So now i have to write about her. Damn! Nah, i wanted to this long time ago but never really had the time except today. So this is for you, Sepet Eyes Bitch.

I've known here for about 7 years now. The more i hang out with her, the more i miss her. In primary school, i used to dance malay traditional dance and BORIA with her. We would be the only two girls making too much noise and just dancing our heart outs. We loved everything about Boria. We always were the first ones to be there on time when it was practice. When secondary year started, we both kinda left each other for quite some time because she was having problems and i had my friends to hang out with. But when people say anything about her to me, i would back her up 100% even though at that time i knew what she did was wrong. But deep inside my heart, i love her to bits.When i moved to subang jaya. We both surprisingly came closer. Because we both had the same guy problems. She was the only one that could understand me. And we both have the same thing in common when we hurt ourself. Lol. She always had my back. She gives a whole lot of advices, the right advices. And i do the same for her too. Im moving back to Sri petaling Next Year. Promise babe. And dont worry, we would have more times together. You know I love you. And i can't wait to see your ballet perfomance this sunday. Im sure its gonna be a blasstttttt! haha, I miss you babe. Kisses xoxo =)

This poem is for you, Bitch. lol.

Best friends we are ,
Best friends we'll be,
For always forever,
You and Me!

Longer than a phone call,
Deeper than the sea,
All this belongs to us,
You and Me!

Put it in a bottle,
Never let it free,
keep it in your heart,
You and Me!

I hope you read this poem,
Remember it for me,
Look after it with care,
You and Me!

-fallen angel-

♥ 4:27 PM

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Pictures, I promise.

Before buka puasa, hungry weeehh..

All of us. The girls. The best. The greatest

Fara adiba, Juria, Me.

Meet Juria Hartmans. Shes hot eh? Shes the only succesfull model in our school.

ow cool is that? I look fat. Damn

Im at the far end. Spot me! HAHA!.

So. My internet is not coming till the end of the month. Surprisingly, i told my mum i wanted it that way. Much more better to be putting myself in Books. This week has been so stressful. Crying nights, listening to fucked up music, so hurt. So depressed with where my life is going. But im still alive so it ain't that bad right?. Since its like 12:40am. I really need to be heading back home. Surprisingly im the only girl here. How cool is that? Im not even scared. Maybe its because i see people that can protect me from anything. I think. Well maybe la k. So. Everyone is playing D.O.T.A as usual. So stupid. The most stupid-est game invented in the history of the world. Everyone is so addicted to it. Its either D.O.T.A or Counter strike. Hit your bloody head in the books la for goodness sake. Stupid people. I wanted to write something emo today. But i dont feel the vide. Since i hear alot of people shouting here and there. I message two people today. They made me really happy. Can't believe i have to lie to my boyfriend about this saturday. But i can't help it. I.NEED.A.GODDAMN.DAY.OUT. And sometimes things are just better left unsaid dont you think? Please go with me on this one. Pretty please. Okay, i sound like someone i dont really want to sound like. Okay, this post has just been boring-your-mind right? Im sorry. Just want time to pass faster i guess.. Well, let me talk about trials?

Okay. There is only Maths Science & arts to go. Quite fast eh? Well we are in the arts class. Oh well, i hope i dont screw up in arts. if i do. i rather just put a shotgun through my head and not suffer in life. Seriously. At this time, i wouldn't mind doing it. Okay, i can't say much. Boyfriend getting angry im not home yet. Hes sick and he can still scold me. Wth? Okay, i miss everyone. Loves. xoxo

-fallen angel-

♥ 12:06 AM

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Nicole Main says:
but is he hot?
Nicole Main says:
honestly laa?
Nicole Main says:
hahahah
Nicole Main says:
from the looks of your sepet eyes, is he hot?
Nicole Main says:
hahaha
i starve to be the best. says:
SHADDDUP
i starve to be the best. says:
bout my sepet eyes
i starve to be the best. says:
i know it's very the sexy. unlike you.
Nicole Main says:
sexy?! my big foot is sexier then that
Nicole Main says:
haha
i starve to be the best. says:
who the hell wants to stare at your feet and kiss at the same time???
i starve to be the best. says:
people stare at eyes
i starve to be the best. says:
Nicole Main says:
this is like so mean weeehhhh! haha
Nicole Main says:
haha for you there is nothing to stare at la, get it?
i starve to be the best. says:
=.=
i starve to be the best. says:
you're so lame.
Nicole Main says:
you're so LAMER. haha
i starve to be the best. says:
YOU're LAMMEEEEE ASS WOMAN
Nicole Main says:
At least i have A ASSS!!
i starve to be the best. says:
yea, a BIG ONE
i starve to be the best. says:
my ass very the nice okay
Nicole Main says:
hahaha, dumbshit la you.
Nicole Main says:
lol
i starve to be the best. says:
YOU WANNA SEEEE?????.
Nicole Main says:
ew, please. my eyes are too big to even shut it after seeing your SO CALLED perfect ass!
Nicole Main says:
haha
Nicole Main says:
and big eyes are SEXY! not sepet-ness
Nicole Main says:
lol
i starve to be the best. says:
big eyes are scary
i starve to be the best. says:
you STARE while making out
Nicole Main says:
how would you know? Have you ever make out with me? I dont think ssssoooo!!!
hahaha.
i starve to be the best. says:
one day i watch you and jack make out
i starve to be the best. says:
and record
i starve to be the best. says:
and see how scary your HUGE eyes look

Lol, i had this conversation with suetling just a few minutes ago. And its just so cool. haha, On the other hand, shawn's father is outside teaching shawn. And hes raising his voice and threatening to slap shawn if shawn gets it wrong. And to my own extend, i feel like slapping the father much more. Come on, hes 8 years old, not 18. He doesn't understand and he doesn't need some fucktard like you shouting at him. You need patience. If you put one hand on my nephew, i would kick your bloody ass back to your stupid looking putra car okay. you dont deserve to even be here after you walked out on my sister. and i can't believe she even gave you a chance. Thta's just so stupid. You dont even know how to have patience. Jst because youre not gonna get FUCKED by your stupid lawyer 10 years older girlfriend you wanna put the steam on shawn. You're such an asshole. Fucker.

♥ 8:10 PM

Monday, September 8, 2008

And i was born to tell you i love you.
And i am torn, to do what i have to,
To make you mine, stay with me tonight.

-Your call, Secondhand Serenade-

I never wanted anything
the way that i want you.

But words dont seem to matter,
my words dont seem to matter

Look at me and i can see the lies your running too

But words dont seem to matter,
i rather have you tested and true.

-Tested and true, Secondhand Serenade-

I lose myself in all this fights,
I lose my sense in wrong and right, I cry I cry,

looking from the pain that's in my head,
just want to crawl into my bed
&throw away the life i led,
but i wont let it die, i wont let it die.
But its over, its over, Why is it over?
We had the chance to make it.
Now its over, its over, it can't be over,
I wish that i could take it back.

-Its not over, secondhand serenade-

Yes as you can see. I've been listening to 3 of these songs, and the songs meaning are for 3 different people, You can guess who it is for la k? I really love the first and the last song. I got addicted to secondhand serenade because of the song que ask me to listen to. He gave me It's not over,secondhan sereande. Because of my past broken relationship whatever shit. So yeah, since then i downloaded the whole album of secondhand serenade. I realize all their songs are almost the same. I mean either the melody or something like that. The most greatest melody i ever heard from them is Fall For You. And i only knew that song came out like so long ago. And i've only heard it now. How kuno is that? Yeah it very is. So ignore my old post. It was just something i had to put up because of the stress ive been undergoing. Nothing much happen today. As usual, BM trials and sucks like shit, it was so goddamn hard from all the latest exams, Everyone was complaining about it and saying how hard it was. Oh well, wish for the best. And i was supposed to go to the bazaar today, end up didnt, because i ate earlier then buka puasa time. OOPS! So yeah, anyways, nothing much. Gotta go read ENGLISH now. Take care yea?

-fallen angel-

♥ 10:34 PM

And this is the first time i feel so guilty about doing this to you. I never knew that it would hurt you that much. And looking back to what i actually did, i couldn't believe for everyword i said. I know tonight ain't gonna come out good. I know you're gonna tell me how much you hate for what i did and stuff like that. But i wish i could bring us back again. Im so sorry for what i did. Although you did much more hurting things to me, i never knew i could do this behind your back. And i was the one that gave the idea to change myself so we could work out. And im so sorry for what i did. I can never forgive myself now. Never ever in my lifetime. Please dont let me go, just stay with me for this one last time. Im sorry.

-fallen angel-

♥ 2:39 PM

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Swimming Pool Party with Anne&Ling

Some pictures are 18U. LOL

And btw, its not in order. So yeah. Just enjoy.

Meet Anne&Ling.
Hahaha, they gonna kill me for putting this pic up.

Haven't seen him for about 1 year.
He's my photographer,

Andy Tan.

3 leng lui's. Hahah

Ling & Me

DAMN! she did it again!

In i go

There i did it! Yeaah!

Anne

Playing Water

So cutee

Teaching ling to float. haa

Anne

This is what you called PALE SKIN, beyotch

Myspace Pic. HAHA!

Suet Ling.

Me.

Memories

Does it look Nice?

Myspace Market Pic. haha

HAHAH, i spoiled this picture. like seriously.

Me and my ugly me.

Before dipping in!

it was so hot, so mind my sepet eyes

& I got a hairCut, No difference eh? Oh well.
At least its shorter. Thanks to ling. haha

So i had a good day with the bunch. Made me much more relaxed in a way because i could tell someone my real problems i've been having. Sorry i was away for so long. Back hurts. Gotta go lay down. Take care. =)

-fallen angel-

* And you know you still love me*

♥ 10:20 AM