I'm blogging because i cant seem to tell anyone else how i'm feeling.
Mann, i miss him like quite alot. I have so many mixed up feelings.
Im scared, im worried, im sad, im depressed, im emo, im having no patience at all, im terrified, im hoping, im wishing for things that i know won't come true.

I've been hearing the song too many times now. Its so stuck in my head. I'm singing to babylove for goodness sake. I hate the song, i really do. It's all fake & lies. I read his old messages all the time before i sleep. It makes me cry then fall asleep, cause i feel so tired of crying so i just go into a sudden sleep or dream. Wake up the next morning and wonder how did i actually fall asleep. I'm suffering from so many things right now. My mood is going on and off all the time. I just wish there was more time. More time to fix so many things. I gotta stop crying. I gotta stop feeling this way.