The beloved.

This was taken 03.07.08.

I'm really sick but still took a picture. Yes i was bored, duche' babylove is behind me but you can't really see him because i blocked him. He's sleeping now. Just fed and bath him. I think he's already trained on where to poop and all. You should see my house now, its all covered up with wood here, and there. Cuz duche' is not allowed to go nearby the living room. Since my mum's carpet is there. I seem to listen to "Torn - natalie imbruglia" Almost all the time now. And only now i understand the lyrics and wonder why this song actually came to our lives. And i had the weirdest dream on the second of this month.. But i didnt write it down. It was me and some guy on the road. He said this.

I woke up and i could still remember the words. And i couldn't even see who it was. I'm thinking it's G*D. But i'm not sure. Well whatever it is, maybe he's right. I was so blindly in love trying to fix things that i never really knew what he was feeling. Oh well, all i know is the love is there, the missing is still there, we message yesterday for about 2 hours. He wanted to test me whether i still cared. And of course i did, although sometimes i felt like giving up. But i couldn't stop myself from messaging. Hope he's college life and his life would work out for the best. We were always meant to be bestfriends and i'm happy for that.. Babylove <3.

I've been missing school lately, because my eyes seem so bengkak when i wake up, and i feel so lazy to even get up, because its either i slept at 5 30 in the morning or maybe 6. I sleep at the weirdest time nowdays. And it's always because i'm crying before that. So it makes me sleepy, and i just fall just like that. I slept at my living room for a while yesterday cause i didn't feel like sleeping in my room. Oh well, whatever it is. Tomorrow is school again, i think i'm missing. I think laa. See first laa. I know everyone hates me now for missing school. I know i haven't change yet. I can't say much la.

-fallen angel-