As if you have a choice.

I'm a girl who ONLY love people who love me
I'm a girl who ONLY love myself & friends
Oh yes, I'm taken, happily, :D

I want you to like me
I wanna have lots of ka-ching $$
I want someone i can really trust
I want my past to be forgotten
I want people to know i'm MIX not malay

Anis Nabilla .
Michelle .
Eshia Kar Mun .
Shafique .
Lily Zahara .
Samira .
Sue Hanie .
Denise Siau .
Farhana K .
Rachael Teng .
Li Anne .
Tevaneea .
Trisha Teo .
Aisyah .
Eleena A .
Juria H .
Tiffany .
Sonia A .
Beauty .
Jack Chan .
Sho Suzuki .
Vanessa .
ModelMaterials .

February 2008
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June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
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November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009

It's over and done with. You were the one i fell for over and over again. You were the only i believe every lie you told me. And when are you ever going to change? Is this the life i prepared for? No. I want a new life.

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Wednesday, April 16, 2008

I'm not afraid to cry every once a while even though

Going on with you gone still upsets me

there are days, every now and again i pretend i'm okay

But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

Never knowing what could have been
And not seeing that loving you

Was what i was trying to do

Don't worry, the lyrics mean nothing. Seriously it doesnt. I just really love this song like so much, I dont even know the reason. I can hear it over and over again. maybe its because the way he sings it, maybe its because how he felt while he was singing this song. The way he moves everyone to hear how he actually sing. It feels so real. It feels like he was hurting so badly. You should really listen to it. Even though the lyrics might hurt, but hey, its a song. what to do. haa

"Rascal Flatts - What hurts the most"

Moving on,

Today was fine. i came back from school.Was just relaxing, hearing songs and stuff. then someone was at my door, I was wondering who the hell was there. End up it was thevanesh and jeswena. Hahah, so they hanged out until about 5. Then thevanesh went home, I went to sleep for a while. Guess what? Jeswena was still here. haha. sesat-ed. She talked to my mum while i slept,I was damn tired. Sorry babe! Then, she went home around 8. She overslept i guess. Then i woke up around 11. Got lectured around by beverley and max. It really did hit me laa. What i should do with my life and stuff like that. What i should really go and aim for. But just now, while they were lecturing me. I was only thinking of one thing. The only one person that can really motivate me. It was always him. Never anyone else.

Always him that made me go after my goals, my dreams, What i wanted in life.

I wont be a good dancer if it wasn't for him waking me up at night sometimes just to practice a few steps.. I won't be a "stand up for my own rights" if he didn't teach me how to do it. I wont be a person that everyone takes advantage off. He took care of me, like he said just like " a father". Yeah, i guess he was right. Well now all i know is i would show the world that i can be different this time. No more late nights, no more hanging out with my boyfriend till 2 in the morning. No more Sleeping at wee hours. No more thinking " ala, later only la do my homeowork".

SET MY PRIORITY STRAIGHT!

ohmygod, you wanna talk so much in class right, why not just talk infront of my face? Its easier. GROW UP WEH!

-fallen angel-

Yes, that's the name okay.

♥ 1:30 AM