Definition of love?

My definition of love is just being happy with the one you're in love with, just be happy that you are able to see him for 5 minutes, listening to nice love songs and knowing hes next to you hugging you. Knowing that whenever he looks at a girl, he doesn't think anything. Instead he says *i'm so glad i'm with a girl like you and no one else*. Before he goes to sleep, he tells you i wanna hear your voice before i sleep, please. Before he goes to work or before he hangs out, he sends you a sweet message saying he is thinking of you

Whenever there is bad times, he knows that he is so angry with you and he tends to stay away cause he doesn't want to say something he knows he would regret. Knowing that it would hurt the girl that he is staying away but the next day, he is still the one to apologise. Even if no one apologises, he says he can't help not talking or not messaging or not calling, and he comes forward and says *why not we just forget about all this and start over*. The times that you don't expect anything to happen, he's waiting outside your house with a flower. The times where you think everything is wrong in your life, with your family with everything. He brings you out just for a drink and relaxes your mind.

For the past three years i've been thinking to myself, what is love? is love supposed to make you happy? if it is, then why everytime when i'm in a relationship, im just not happy. Maybe yeah, i see the bad things in life.I always see the negative things in life, its just me. I dont believe in miracles, I don't believe in coincidence, I dont believe in love where ex boyfriends or ex girlfriends can get back together but sometimes it does happen. Well everyone has a different expect in everything anyways. This is just mine.

~I know i may not be the best girlfriend to you right now. I know i might sometimes have my doubts, but please stay on this boat with me and never leave me. Never join the fishes out there. Just stay with me. I know i can make us happy, I know i can make you smile. I know i can love you, Just give me some time to forget about everything and see us as the greatest love of all. I'm always thinking to myself that i can never be the best for you, but i hope you have faith in us more then i have faith in myself. I love you, You know i do. I never felt happy in any of my other relationship except when i'm with you. But i'm always expecting more then this and i know i shouldn't be thinking about anyone else except you. I'm sorry if i were to hurt you but please i beg you, dont leave me for anything else.~

-SuicidalDramaz-